"I won't tell you where the place is, the dark mesh of the woods
meeting the unmarked strip of light—
ghost-ridden crossroads, leafmold paradise:
I know already who wants to buy it, sell it, make it disappear.
"And I won't tell you where it is, so why do I tell you
anything? Because you still listen, because in times like these
to have you listen at all, it's necessary
to talk about trees."
-- Adrinenne Rich "Revolutionary Road"
I thought it was enough that I didn't give the names of the forests where I found it.
I thought it was enough that I told people to take only the aerial parts and only a few from each stand and not share their harvest spots and only use the medicine when nothing else would do.
But none of that matters to the plant whose populations my writing and teaching served a role in decimating.
I thought it was enough that I had the plant's permission to teach about it.
But plant's don't know much about our culture's desire to take things and have them for our own. So it was never really informed consent.
I told myself it was ok because William Cook had written about Monotropa uniflora all the way back in the nineteenth century and he hadn't made its populations dwindle. But I didn't understand the impact another century of removing people further and further from the wild and from their own wildness would have.
I thought, nobody is going to read what some upstart late bloomer herbalist in rural Maine says, these words won't reach very far. My false humility kept me from understanding how far my voice would carry.
I wish I had never begun writing and speaking about Ghost Pipe.
Yes, there are people who were helped who no other plant could serve who met Ghost Pipe through my writings. And people who fell in love with the plant after I introduced them to hir and have built loving relationships with hir. But I know enough about plants and about magic to know that I could have made this happen in more discerning ways.
So I am writing this now so you do not accidentally betray a beloved plant in the way that I have.
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Another Adrienne Rich poem comes to mind:
"Everything we write
will be used against us
or against those we love.
These are the terms,
take them or leave them.
Poetry never stood a chance
of standing outside history.
One line typed twenty years ago
can be blazed on a wall in spraypaint
to glorify art as detachment
or torture of those we
did not love but also
did not want to kill.
We move but our words stand
become responsibly
for more than we intended
and this is verbal privilege"
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The nature of plant knowledge is similar to that of other magical lore. Those new to the Craft, tasting the liberation and vitality they are feeling in enduring ways for the first time in their lives, want to share everything so that others can be free too. They assume the magic they have found is so pure and so powerful that it will transform the hearts of those who engage it, leaving no need to fear for its abuse.
That was what I believed when I began writing and teaching about Ghost Pipe. Connecting with plants made you a better person, so all knowledge should be out there, free for the reading and finding.
The years that followed gave me a more nuanced understanding.
Yes, absolutely, the plants are there for all to encounter. Just like the gods and the elements of nature.
But as with gods, there are some plants, and some aspects of their being and their medicine that are best shared by the plants themselves alone, when and how they choose to share them. Or, by a seasoned practitioner with a trusted student after years of working together. Not because that knowledge belongs to an elect few, but because it loses meaning outside its context.
Many of us who teach hold this to be true about poisonous plants and profoundly mind altering plants, because of the dangers they might pose to people using them without the knowledge of the proper time and place and manner.
It is equally true of rare and fragile plants, because of the danger people might pose to them by using them without the knowledge of the proper time and place and manner.
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I understand why knowledge of a plant like Ghost Pipe spreads like wildfire. We live in a time when people feel cut off from the living world, and finding out about a strange, beautiful plant that taps into the mind of an entire forest brings a stir of recognition of the kind of connection the deepest parts of ourselves know is possible, even when we so seldom experience it in our lives and our worlds.
And I understand why so many feel the need to harvest the plant for themselves or buy the tincture from someone else. We live in a culture that has objectified and commodified everything. And in which the sense of our entitlement is magnified and the sense of our impact on the living world is diminished -- my own included, or I wouldn't be here writing this mea culpa. It can seem like the only way to access the magic Ghost Pipe represents to us is to hold something made of the body through which that magic moves.
I am not saying nobody should use Ghost Pipe as medicine. I am saying it should be used only when no other medicine will do, by people with enough knowledge to know that no other medicine will do, who have also cultivated a deep relationship with the plant.
For those who have come here seeking knowledge about this plant, here is what I suggest you do instead:
go to the forests, the fields, the deserts, the mountains
find strange and beautiful beings
make respectful loving relationships with them
and hold their medicine as close as you would hold a Beloved.